Yesterday before I slept, I wondered how will I handle today’s tuition.

Will I scold my students relentlessly for being lazy and reduce them to tears, or will I tolerate their nonsense once again?

I am pretty fed up with my students lately. Because their English are pretty weak, I never fail to give them spellings every week (sometimes even twice a week), and I specifically said that I would like them to check the dictionary for the meanings to each word.

The very next week, they’ll make my blood boil, giving me excuses after excuses.

Cher I got no time to learn the words. Cher, I lost the list leh, I thought I kiap between my book… Cher, must learn the meanings meh?

Other than that, I sensed that they purposely pull tricks on me like, Cher, I forgot to bring my assessment book home from school, and assorted other nonsenses.

Si bei du lan.

Sometimes I want to scream to their face, “You think I’m stupid is it?! What you’ve tried before, I’ve done them before too! And you! You think I so free to sit down at home and pick cheem cheem words and phrases for you to learn?! You think I come down for 3 hours to accompany you to do your homework, that’s all?! It is either to you initiate to learn, if not don’t waste my time!”

But cannoooot. Sometimes I am amazed when see myself reduced to a meek little lamb Cher in front of them. I had never pointedly chided them with names calling like lazy boy, liar, stupid, for fear of hurting their feelings - ‘cause I know how bad it feels like.

Today, my Primary 5 boy purposely missed my session to attend a party. Intially I was goddamn pissed cause I earlier had intentions not to go as I was sleepy, bloated and cranky as hell (bo bian, vampire teabag day). I had my smelliest face on during the entire session, nitpicking every mistake my Secondary 1 boy made. Poor him.

After awhile, I loosened up and eventually smiled a little when my Sec 1 boy told me stories from his classroom.

And then I pulled out something from my bag.

(siao lah, not a dildo lah!)

Happy Children’s Day. *sheepishly* Hehe, thank you! Cher, you know I youth already leh. Aiyah, I know! But fair lah, you and your brother will have something.

Now I worry for the Pri 5 boy. I hope he really went for the party and not get lost somewhere. I hope he’ll not get smack once he reach home. I hope he will have a good Children’s Day tomorrow. I hope he’ll remember to learn his spelling next week.