Just as I thought school holiday are the perfect time to join a design competition, I am wrong once again.

Wah lao, school holiday have no buzz, no motivation and no company. It’s very tough for a lazy person like me to get going-ing-ing!

I’ve decided on the theme I would like to work on, but I don’t know where to begin!!!

Should my research work be on one sketchbook? Or should I incorporate the research into the overall presentation of the work? How to incorporate?! @#%^&

And surprisingly, I feel very pessimistic of myself right now. I know, to submit is one thing. To be selected is another. But the perfectionistic me can’t stop telling myself, “I submit, means must get selected! And I must win $10,000 dolla ala Sven Tan! MUST!

And now I am scared off with shit in my pants (like the grossly obese lady), and I don’t know where to begin!

I think the biggest obstacle is myself. = (

Arrrrrh!