Two years ago, I would name this Project Air Stewardess (not because I wanna be an air waitress!). Heck, maybe even Project Jolin. You know why? Pretty pretty outside, but inside empty one.

One year ago, I would have named it Project Diet. Just focus on the ideal, and diet relentlessly till I achieve my goal (for your info, I was 4kg short of my ideal 49kg).

Today, I wanna call it, Project Health.

When I started dropping hair more than eight months ago, I thought my previous maid put “black majik” on me. Afterall, I was pretty demanding and difficult towards her (but I never hamtum her hor!). It was only after she went back to Indonesia that it finally dawned on me that, there is no such thing as “black majik”, and there must be something wrong I took or did that started the hair-shedding mechanism.

Could it be the diet pills I took? Can’t be, cause I had already been taking it one year prior to the incident.

Could it be due to the wax vapors I inhaled when I did my batik assignment in the Print Shop? Can’t be, I had already inhaled it when I did my mega-2metres-long Art project for O-level.

Could it be the weight I gained back? Could be, cause I have never gained so much in such a short time.

Could it be the milk I’ve been drinking? Could be; I never like milk, but it’s only earlier this year that I started taking it with cornflakes - Cause I like its flavor.

Just to be on the safe side, I stopped taking the diet pills (mummy took it away from me!), I stopped visiting my favorite technician at the Print Shop cause I wanna stay away from the chemicals in there (partly cause I’m usually too busy to gelek gelek around), and I treat my current maid much much better.

HOWEVER, I didn’t stop gaining weight (can’t help it!) and I forgot to stop drinking milk.

I had been avoiding the weighing scale like plague cause I can’t bear to face it. Just imagine how shocked I was when I discovered that I am back to where I was, when I stood on the scale yesterday.

Shock, I am. Embarrassed, I’m not. Worried, hell yesss! I don’t wanna end up with hypertension and diabetes before 30 you know? And I haven’t achieved my ambitions yet!

Therefore, my Project Health will have certain guidelines I have to adhere to. Guidelines coming up later. (I hope…)