I know you are not interested, I just wanna record down the things that happened recently.

1. I got another freelance job with a has-been local fashion designer. I met this has-been local fashion designer (refer to as HS for short) while presenting the uniform designs with the client. She like my illustrations and therefore, engaged my help to help her with some illustration work as now is the peak period for her business. Sometimes, I feel very lucky cause there are always people who notice me and give me a chance to work as a freelance designer.

A paid freelance designer, that is.

2. I do not like to do free work. Sometimes I get lobang from friends. One is my ex best friend. Her dad runs a retail shop and wish to produce some apparels under his “label”. She relates to me about it. Initially I was pretty interested, but as the details are so vague, I decided to protect my ass and not to venture into it.

In another incident, two of my other ex-hangout-friends also messaged out of the blue on MSN. First they began with the customary “Hello, how are you?”, and after that, they immediately delved into their initial motive.

Make it sure, I do not have anything against helping friends but I really feel used when people just msged me to gain some use outta me. Just because I am doing design does not means I may be good at producing invitation cards, or graphics for tee shirt.

First they tell me, “I anything (design style-wise) also can one”. I fucking hate this line. Anything-anything, when I put in the effort and finish the work, they give me unreasonable demands. If you don’t tell me you want street style, and I produce something that is not street enough (not because I don’t wish to, but it’s simply not my style), you say I suck and accused me of screwing up your project.

Therefore, I decided. I am not going to do anyone, any design favors, if they are not going to give me a proper brief of the project, and some designer fee. At least pay me some money cause money is the greatest motivator for me.

3. I screwed up in first internship interview. Last friday, I went for my first internship interview. And I screwed up. Not because I suck, but they felt I wasn’t suitable for the job. He said I should be in merchandising instead. He said I shouldn’t expect too much of this post. Therefore, he did not offer the post to me.

No job nevermind, but the real mindfuck is, he made me really wonder if I have chosen the wrong path! Argh. I dunno lah.

  1. I chao-ed classed until like siao. Lately, I haven’t been able to wake up on time for my classes. Sometimes, I missed class in order to get some assignments done. In a 3-days week, I can be late for 2 morning classes and go MIA for 2 other classes. How wonderful.

I am soooo going to fail by attendance.

Ok, gotta pack up and go home now. Till then again.