Little Dowager

Institu-retardation, Rant3 February, 2006

I do feel like a kancheong beaver at times. Sometimes I just absent-mindedly think out loud and mutter to myself, much to the amusement and confusion of my friends. But my anxieties are not uncalled for; with a schedule like mine, you’ll be a beaver too (but I’m still the cutest beaver).

Next Monday, I have to submit my final project for draping class. The weightage is 40% And I’m also only 40% there. Yet I don’t feel like I’m anywhere near to completion. What if I can’t finish?! Confirm supp paper terminal one!

Also on Monday, I’m having my french oral test with Mr. Cute French-but-reportedly-gay. Wah lao, wait I mutter like a gibbering german how?! Wait I blush like a lebanese how?!

Then on Thursday I have to hand in all my advanced CAD assignments (5-6 of them) that I have NEVER bothered hand in. I’m on the brink of debarrment (pontang too many times already) , which enroutes to supp paper terminal and Mr. Manicure is giving me one last chance to redeem myself. I cannot go supp paper terminal!

Also on Thursday, I have a group project submission which requires us to do up 3 wearable art costumes. At this point, we just laid our needle-poked hands on the materials, but we haven’t even begin on them. And I still owe Mr. Manicure my knitting assignment which I’m probably giving up on cause I can’t knit to save my life, and I simply do not have the time to learn now.

Then on friday I have a 2 report to hand in. One requires us to do sourcing on the net, and we need the goddamn samples. Wah lao, by the time they air-mail over, I guess I’m already shrivelled up like Nicole Ritchie liao.

Brokeback mountain? More like BroKENback mountain.

Back-breaking mountain load of work.

Rant

Sometimes I wish I had given up on a hopeless person earlier.

Then I wouldn’t spend so much time feeling angry and frustrated, and end up fucking up my blood pressure. (Shit, must cool down. Heart problem runs in my family. breath in breath out)

And nag at Hopeless girl. And annoy her. And start to worry if I’ll ever attract a guy with my nagginess. And wonder if I’ll really like the guy. (Oh shit, Valentine is coming. PDA/ripoff-fest alert!) And then worry if I’ll ever get married. And start feeling goddamn old.

I’m only 19, you know?!

And shit, my next birthday is less than 3 months away.

Oh shit, what if everyone forget it’s on a Tuesday, 2nd of May?!

(shit shit. tear tissue paper frantically)