I am not happy today.
Sometimes I wonder, would I be happier if I had taken a much slower and smoother path? Would I still be contented with my life and with what I can achieve? Will I regret?
Sometimes I feel I am all alone in the world. I maybe surrounded by people all the time, but…
Sometimes I wonder why friends lie to me. Why people lie to me. Why they all can’t be truthful to me. My friends… they all seemed so malicious.
Sometimes I wonder what lies behind your smiles and laughter. Sometimes I wonder are you the nice person you tried to make yourself out to be. Sometimes I wonder have I ever known the real Michelle when we were still friends.
Sometimes I wonder what will happen if I fuck-care everything I have now and just die. Would I still think the world revolves around the deadlines, grades and submissions?
Sometimes, I just wanna give up. Passion, like matchsticks… How long can they last while another burnout?
