Can someone tell me what I am doing now is right, and assure me that everything will be ok, and both of us will be two happy people at the end of the day?
I feel so guilty, but everything seems so right when I want it badly - I just go ‘fuck it’ and carry on anyway. Sometimes I see us as very close friends, we are healthy adults with human desires. Besides, we are not really doing anything overboard. You are there for me, I am there for you. No emotional burdens, no strings attached. We joke like good friends, we chat on the phone over everything. We discuss designs, we enjoy food together. We tell one another everything, we share every secrets. You know, like 2 unusually close friends?
Isn’t this the best arrangement? I don’t have to tie him down, I don’t want to feel the emotional burden either. Yet there’s companionship for both of us.
I don’t know whether to agree with someone that there’s no such thing as a platonic relationship in the entire world.
Sometimes I don’t quite agree with myself too.
I want you to fly off to Japan as soon as possible, so I won’t get to see you for the next 3 years.
