When I was in secondary school, I discovered that I could draw realistically.

I aced still-life rendering in secondary school easily, drawing cross-sections of lime, peaches and green pepper like they were meant for science textbooks. Getting an A was not a problem for me.

Then one day, this talent mysteriously disappeared. Ever since then, every shape I drew with my hand were formed by many straight lines. Funny thing is, I can’t draw a straight line straight without rulers.

An egg will be formed by 3-4 semi-curve lines. A curve is formed by 3-4 semi-straight lines.

Take a look at my sketches, and you’ll know what I mean.

Then take away my colour pencils, I wouldn’t be able to put down light and shadows. I just don’t know how to do it in lead pencils.

And then I realised I can’t draw things symmetrically. One side is curvier/sharper/bigger/smaller than the other. And so, I end up shaping it slimmer/wider/smaller/bigger with many many strokes.

I thought I would ace my figure drawing class back in my 1st year, but I only got a paltry B (or C, cannot remember). I remembered how I struggled through that module, knowing that I could draw, but couldn’t produce the work satisfactorily.

My ‘inability’ to draw is frustrating me. It makes a usually patient person like me, impatient. Sometimes it frustrate me so much, that I rather draw by computer program. Just so I don’t have to bother bout erasing those ugly pencil marks.

Tell me, how to be a designer like that?

How to be a designer when one cannot produce decent, proportionate sketches in a snap?!

Super low-morale now.