I think I discovered a way to eradicate my bout of loneliness.

Go home before 7pm, before the street lights turn on.

I have a strange habit of spacing out on the bus. Every streetlights and headlight turn into bokeh in my eyes. Coupled with some smooth jazz and slow jams on my ipod, it really makes me long for any form of company, and I’ve done some crazy thing because of that crazy bout of loneliness.

Smoking outside alone at 4am in the morning? Check that.

Drink myself silly in the privacy of my room? Hell yes.

Don’t even get me started on those that involves other individual. 

I think the only person who can contain my sometimes self-destructive manner is my mom. Surprise surprise.